I was watching a YouTube video the other day, and the video asked "what are you most happy about in life"? (for those of you wondering, it was sXePhil).
It occurred to me then that I'm not emotionally or physically happy. While materialistically I'm content, I have no realistic goals nor anything to live up to. I live for no one and no one lives for me. I have no friends here in Virginia and my social statues is down in the shitter. My grades suck compare to my peers and I'm constantly looked down upon for impossible things that can't be accomplished by me. The classes I'm taking are a laughingstock among pretty much everyone I know and even my underlings look down upon me.
I opt to change but I think my life already took a permanent turn towards a unchangeable, miserable road towards epic failure.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
Friday, May 2, 2008
I stole $600+ dollars
Ever hear of the saying that money is the root of all evil? Well today I found out what that means first hand.
On my previous blog, I said I was addicted to the internet. Well the internet wasn't the only thing I was addicted to. Part of it was MapleStory (online game). Due to my stupidity and blindness from the world, I went as low as to keylog my own dad. I persuaded him to go into his bank account and bam. Just like that, I had all his info.
For the past 3 weeks, I've been secretly going inside his account and taking money. At first, it was very litle ($5 at most). Eventually, it got bigger and bigger. My last (AND FINAL!!!!!!!!!!) transaction was a total of $190. And before that, $100 and even before that $90.
I started adding up all the money I took and the number was beyond shocking. All I can say is wow. If I was any older, I'm pretty sure I would be locked up in jail for 10+ years for this.
Of course, I plan to pay back everything in full but who knows how long that'll take....
In case this somehow makes it to the public (I've seen few blogs that were like this that somehow reached the media), I will be removing all my private information temporarily.
On my previous blog, I said I was addicted to the internet. Well the internet wasn't the only thing I was addicted to. Part of it was MapleStory (online game). Due to my stupidity and blindness from the world, I went as low as to keylog my own dad. I persuaded him to go into his bank account and bam. Just like that, I had all his info.
For the past 3 weeks, I've been secretly going inside his account and taking money. At first, it was very litle ($5 at most). Eventually, it got bigger and bigger. My last (AND FINAL!!!!!!!!!!) transaction was a total of $190. And before that, $100 and even before that $90.
I started adding up all the money I took and the number was beyond shocking. All I can say is wow. If I was any older, I'm pretty sure I would be locked up in jail for 10+ years for this.
Of course, I plan to pay back everything in full but who knows how long that'll take....
In case this somehow makes it to the public (I've seen few blogs that were like this that somehow reached the media), I will be removing all my private information temporarily.
Monday, April 21, 2008
I have internet addiction disorder
Today, I finally figured it was time to put a stop to my down-hilled life. I knew my obsession for using computers was one of my primary sources of laziness so I decided to do some research.
From here on, everything I say will be full of irony. Literally.
I'm sitting down and I go to Google and type "Internet addiction" (ironically on the internet). There, to my surprise, a lot of results popped up. Some say it's fake while others insist it's real. I took this one test that gave me a score from 1 - 100. I got a 89, which is basically fully addicted. I looked for some help (ironically on the internet) did more research. Turns out everyone is categorized. Personally, I was categorized into Gaming and blogging (not this blog). There, it led me to different websites (ironically on the internet) that gave advices.
One particular website that I found to be interesting was another blogger account, which ironically enough, was intended to help blogging addicted users.
anyway, I guess the whole point of this blog was just to point out that internet addiction disorder is probably the biggest form of irony there is. Sure, a person may go to the library or go to a doctor to find out stuff like this, but why go through the trouble when the internet can give it to you right there (ironically).
From here on, everything I say will be full of irony. Literally.
I'm sitting down and I go to Google and type "Internet addiction" (ironically on the internet). There, to my surprise, a lot of results popped up. Some say it's fake while others insist it's real. I took this one test that gave me a score from 1 - 100. I got a 89, which is basically fully addicted. I looked for some help (ironically on the internet) did more research. Turns out everyone is categorized. Personally, I was categorized into Gaming and blogging (not this blog). There, it led me to different websites (ironically on the internet) that gave advices.
One particular website that I found to be interesting was another blogger account, which ironically enough, was intended to help blogging addicted users.
anyway, I guess the whole point of this blog was just to point out that internet addiction disorder is probably the biggest form of irony there is. Sure, a person may go to the library or go to a doctor to find out stuff like this, but why go through the trouble when the internet can give it to you right there (ironically).
Thursday, April 17, 2008
My math teacher's a racist
No, I'm not just saying this because I hate her. If not for the fact that she treats me like crap, I personally think she's a great teacher.
But honestly, she doesn't even try to conceal the fact that she hates me. I mean, she hand-picks her favorites in the class and treats them differently. Their actually all the kids who gets A's.
Today, for example, was really obvious. I'm working in a group with 3 other kids and she comes over to check up on us. She says these nice compliments to everyone in the table like how "Oh -person 1- is doing all the work again (jokingly)" and "Wow -person 2-, your doing good! Keep it up!". She totally skips me. In fact, if I didn't know any better, I bet she was pretending I wasn't even there. She didn't even look at my paper, let alone eye contact.
Well whatever. She'll soon learn I'm not the slacker she thinks I am...
PS: I'm 100% sure this is NOT her intentions. If, what your thinking is this is her plan to get me to work harder in class, then you sir/ma'am are wrong. I've dealt with teachers who did that and, although all humans are different, she showed no signs of this.
But honestly, she doesn't even try to conceal the fact that she hates me. I mean, she hand-picks her favorites in the class and treats them differently. Their actually all the kids who gets A's.
Today, for example, was really obvious. I'm working in a group with 3 other kids and she comes over to check up on us. She says these nice compliments to everyone in the table like how "Oh -person 1- is doing all the work again (jokingly)" and "Wow -person 2-, your doing good! Keep it up!". She totally skips me. In fact, if I didn't know any better, I bet she was pretending I wasn't even there. She didn't even look at my paper, let alone eye contact.
Well whatever. She'll soon learn I'm not the slacker she thinks I am...
PS: I'm 100% sure this is NOT her intentions. If, what your thinking is this is her plan to get me to work harder in class, then you sir/ma'am are wrong. I've dealt with teachers who did that and, although all humans are different, she showed no signs of this.
Monday, April 14, 2008
Woo spring breaks over ._.''
And I did absolutetly nothing!!
Never have I regretted not doing anything.
During the whole spring break, if I wasn't at work or church, I was sitting in front of my computer, unproductively wasting my time. While I could have been working on some magnificant program or drawing art or anything productive, I didnt.
Of course, it's not entirely my fault. I've been waiting for this certain "friend" to send me this particular program I needed. He ended up delaying this for over 2 weeks. He was suppose to give it to me by late Monday last week; Tuesday morning the latest. Instead, he makes me wait and hope during the whole spring break. Finally, on the LAST day of Spring break, he contacts me (finally ._.'') and tells me a promised day of late tuesday or wednesday morning the latest.
In other news, my mom's finally leaving to Korea. I'm not exactly sad but I'm not exactly happy.
I guess if I were to put it in a heartless type of man's position, I'm not really happy because there's no one to cook food, wash dishes, wash clothes, etc. etc.
Of course, I think all that's totally worth it for some peace and quite in the house.
Monday, March 31, 2008
If the weather teases me anymore, I'm going to shoot myself
One day it's high up in the 80's. The next, it's raining and below 20. And the day after it's around 60. It's nearing April (pretty much is) and we still have more freezing cold days then mild. I was really looking forward to March but I guess I'm just going to have to wait until Summer officially kicks in....
In other news, life is continuing on in the same, dull pattern over and over. Had to do a piano performace for old people at the retirement home again. I might just be high, but I think I got more claps then usual. Really raised my self-esteem (even if it's just me thinking).
Report cards are coming out soon and my dad will behead me for sure. My mom's going back to Korea for a 5 month vacation. Oddly enough, she's coming back when my summer vacation starts. She claims it's this long "illness" she has, but I think what she really wants is a excuse to not go to work anymore. And more obvious reasons like meeting family members, etc. etc.
In other news, life is continuing on in the same, dull pattern over and over. Had to do a piano performace for old people at the retirement home again. I might just be high, but I think I got more claps then usual. Really raised my self-esteem (even if it's just me thinking).
Report cards are coming out soon and my dad will behead me for sure. My mom's going back to Korea for a 5 month vacation. Oddly enough, she's coming back when my summer vacation starts. She claims it's this long "illness" she has, but I think what she really wants is a excuse to not go to work anymore. And more obvious reasons like meeting family members, etc. etc.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Mapleglobal hacking
*sigh*
It was fun while it lasted. Power guard hack is patched today... There goes my one, slight ray of hope on getting to level 90 in a week... I suppose getting to 39-63 in 2 days is better then nothing but I'm still dam disappointed...
In other news, life continually mocks me. Everytime I think I see reality, it closes and I'm blinded by my own thoughts and other's. Man it's annoying...
It was fun while it lasted. Power guard hack is patched today... There goes my one, slight ray of hope on getting to level 90 in a week... I suppose getting to 39-63 in 2 days is better then nothing but I'm still dam disappointed...
In other news, life continually mocks me. Everytime I think I see reality, it closes and I'm blinded by my own thoughts and other's. Man it's annoying...
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