Well evidently my parents think I'm a complete failure. Apparently, not getting into governor school is not going to College. And not going to College equals failing life. So the equation goes something like this.
Doing good in High School --> Good College
Good College --> Win life
Therefore through law of detachment; Doing good in High school = Win life
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Doing bad in High School --> Mediocre/bad/no College
Mediocre/bad/no College --> Epic Phail
Epic Phail --> No point to life (in other words, your better off dead)
Therefore through law of detachment; Doing bad in High School = No point to life
Through law of syllogism, this states that doing good in High school will make you succeed at life!
So I guess what that means is I haven't exactly met my parents expectations. To be quite honest, I've been thinking about this topic myself for quite a bit (years to be honest), and I came across the same conclusion.
So now my parents think it, I think it, my friends think it, and my teachers think it. So let me ask; DID I fail life? :/
Really, I don't think living in shame and embarrassment in the shadows of my own friends will be any fun. It's already embarrassing and shameful enough that I had to repeat TWO classes (Geometry and Biology) while they are in IB (International Baccalaureate [near equivalent of AP {advance placement}])
Friday, February 8, 2008
Thursday, February 7, 2008
Crushing defeat...
No I'm not talking about the football game.
Here in Yorktown, Virginia, there's a special school called the Governor school. This school is for kids who are extremely smart.
Now personally, I don't think getting into this school is all that hard. The only requirement is to have about a 3.2 GPA and to be in Algebra II/Trig by your Sophomore year in High School.
Well thats exactly me. Expect for the Algebra II part....
During my Freshmen year, I fooled around and I was forced to move. Little did I know that fooling around was going to cost me more then my friends. I not only failed to get into Algebra II (which, if I was following my High School outline, should be Pre-Cal instead), but I also failed to get into the school.
Why is this school so important? For many reasons. Some of the more commonly known ones are:
a.) It'll look EXTREMELY good on your transcript for College if you can manage to handle the amount of work they give you.
b.) It's the ONLY school that's public and actually FOCUSES on Computer Technology. No I don't mean typing lessons or how to use Excel. I mean deep stuff like C++ (which isn't all that deep).
All this time, I've been naive enough to believe I was eligible for entering. Today, I asked my school councilor and I finally learned the horrible truth. I won't go into details, but hearing the answer made me almost cry. I guess the only reason I didn't is because all this time, I secretly knew that I couldn't make it. I only denied it...
So not only is that gone, but another tremendous opportunity disappeared from me. I won't go into details but lets just say it's got something to do with girls (NOT SEX!!!!!!!)
Right now, I just feel like I want to die. But I'm a pussy so I can't do that either. So life's just going down the shitter right now... and I doubt anythings going to fix it...
Here in Yorktown, Virginia, there's a special school called the Governor school. This school is for kids who are extremely smart.
Now personally, I don't think getting into this school is all that hard. The only requirement is to have about a 3.2 GPA and to be in Algebra II/Trig by your Sophomore year in High School.
Well thats exactly me. Expect for the Algebra II part....
During my Freshmen year, I fooled around and I was forced to move. Little did I know that fooling around was going to cost me more then my friends. I not only failed to get into Algebra II (which, if I was following my High School outline, should be Pre-Cal instead), but I also failed to get into the school.
Why is this school so important? For many reasons. Some of the more commonly known ones are:
a.) It'll look EXTREMELY good on your transcript for College if you can manage to handle the amount of work they give you.
b.) It's the ONLY school that's public and actually FOCUSES on Computer Technology. No I don't mean typing lessons or how to use Excel. I mean deep stuff like C++ (which isn't all that deep).
All this time, I've been naive enough to believe I was eligible for entering. Today, I asked my school councilor and I finally learned the horrible truth. I won't go into details, but hearing the answer made me almost cry. I guess the only reason I didn't is because all this time, I secretly knew that I couldn't make it. I only denied it...
So not only is that gone, but another tremendous opportunity disappeared from me. I won't go into details but lets just say it's got something to do with girls (NOT SEX!!!!!!!)
Right now, I just feel like I want to die. But I'm a pussy so I can't do that either. So life's just going down the shitter right now... and I doubt anythings going to fix it...
Wednesday, February 6, 2008
My interpretation of the movie "Secret"
Every since I watched the movie, all these thoughts and logic started clashing together in my head. The thought of such a great movie with so many unanswered questions that leaves a huge plot hole is simply mind boggling.
And so, I finally found a place to post all my thoughts and finally unleash my inner thinkings.
Note that some of my thinking patterns are very close to tgan3's. Please know none of the stuff I am about to write is plagiarized from him. In fact, I only registered just today! I will, however, follow the order in which he wrote. This is only to make it easier on me.
IMPORTANT NOTE: Know this. What you are about to read is written by a 15 year old Sophomore. Everything WILL be jumbled up (but I tried to clean it up as much as I could) and most of it will be jumpy.
AND it's really REALLY long. So unless you have the time to spare, be prepare to press back....
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Okay so here's the thing. If you thought real carefully about the movie, then this thought should have come to your head at one point another; Is there different "time dimensions"?
Also, were there two Jays present throughout the whole movie?
In other words, are different time periods running parallel together? This one's EXTREMELY difficult to explain in words. But here's a ATTEMPT.
Basically, this is what I'm saying. Is there different dimensions that have different time periods (anywhere from 1 second ago to 20 years into the future)?
Just basically imagine a film strip. And now, imagine each one of those all running at the same time. Basically, one of those is one "time dimension". Now imagine all of those running at the same time.
I don't mean this type of running: (each "-" and "|" represents one box I guess)
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - +Not running horizontally
^ this would be one going after another, causing motion picture.
The type of running I'm talking about is this:
| | | | | | | | | | | |
^ Notice how each one runs parallel next to each other?
Unless you occupied my head, I will never be able to explain this.
So to make things simple, I'll use use tgan's method.
Time dimension 1: Xiao Yu's time.
Time dimension 2: Jay Chou's time.
Let's get one thing clear: Xiao Yu most likely died because of these reasons.
1. She was saddened by the fact she will never be able to see Jay again. (she said so herself when she was talking to the teacher [or Jay's dad I presume])
2. Her mother's gone insane her teacher thinks she's mentally challenged. To add a step further, the so-called class president told everyone about this "secret".
3. She thought Jay was cheating on her with the other girl.
4. During the graduation, when she was writing with white out, the pressure of everything she's been through finally got to her and her asthma kicked in.
When Jay returned to the past, the building was being demolished at the time. As he pressed the final key, the piano itself was (probably) destroyed. If this is the case, then Jay has no future to return to because when you return to your own time, you return to the time that you played the piece (my theory). This was was never clarified so I can't say for sure. But lets just assume this is the case. If Jay has no future (or present), then whatever time period he's in becomes his present time. This might possibly explain the class photo.
As for why Xiao Yu is still alive? The only logical reason is Jay traveled further back in time. From here, logic is ignored because the movie also never clarified this whole "speed" (or tempo) issue. But, we can all presume Jay played super fast because.... well c'mon. A building's being demolished, you want to see your loved one again, and time is of essence. If it were me, I would have played so fast, I would have gone back to the dinosaur age! Anyway....
Depending on which subbed version of the movie you watched, this part might be different. However, the reason why Xiao Yu's mother said Xiao Yu was sick (when she was actually dead) was because she herself has gone insane. The death of her daughter was too much for her to handle and so, denial kicked in. In the past, when the character switched from Jay to Xiao Yu briefly, Xiao Yu was asked by her mother what she was like in the future. She couldn't say that she goes insane, so rather, she says the front door lock breaks (which does happen).*******
*******- Sorry guys. At this point, I am completely lost in thought. So many things are coming to me all at once and unfortunately, I only have two hands to type one idea at a time with. Basically, I completely forgot what I was talking about and what I was about to write. The fact that it's 11 pm (well past when I sleep) doesn't help either.
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Anyway, I was also interested in interpreting this whole "Jay-XiaoYu sibling issue.
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And also, why did the teacher and Xiao Yu talk as if they were so close, when Xiao Yu was explaining her secret of travelling to the future??...Although Xiao Yu address the teacher as "teacher" not "father"( This was because she didnt know that the teacher was her father, i'll explained it later... )Remember the beginning? Where Jay was in the school, and the teacher caught the two boys with cigarettes? We didnt know that Jay and the teacher were related in that scene, much similar to the case of the "young teacher" and Xiao Yu...It was only made known when they show Jay and the teacher eating together in their house...( haha nice clues laid out by jay chou )
Then why were the mother and father living in seperate homes? I guess they divorced when Xiao Yu was very young( So Xiao Yu cant remember whos her father )...That explains why the teacher is so concerned about Xiao Yu( asking her to come on graduation day and also taking a picture with her), and the teacher and Xiao Yu's mother didnt want to acknowledge they were together once...
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Ahh. There's actually a simple explanation for that. So simple that even a caveman can understand it. However, it's only a theory.
Basically, the teacher thought Xiao Yu was mentally challenged. Not just, but completely INSANE. This explains his kindness towards her (Seriously, do YOU treat mentally challenged people like you would treat a normal person? I think not).
Also, he knows she was getting bullied by her peers at school and knew she wouldn't come. Even though she wasn't insane (or mentally challenged even), he wanted to make her feel "normal" (which she already was) by getting her to go to the graduation.
And so, I finally found a place to post all my thoughts and finally unleash my inner thinkings.
Note that some of my thinking patterns are very close to tgan3's. Please know none of the stuff I am about to write is plagiarized from him. In fact, I only registered just today! I will, however, follow the order in which he wrote. This is only to make it easier on me.
IMPORTANT NOTE: Know this. What you are about to read is written by a 15 year old Sophomore. Everything WILL be jumbled up (but I tried to clean it up as much as I could) and most of it will be jumpy.
AND it's really REALLY long. So unless you have the time to spare, be prepare to press back....
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~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~-~
Okay so here's the thing. If you thought real carefully about the movie, then this thought should have come to your head at one point another; Is there different "time dimensions"?
Also, were there two Jays present throughout the whole movie?
In other words, are different time periods running parallel together? This one's EXTREMELY difficult to explain in words. But here's a ATTEMPT.
Basically, this is what I'm saying. Is there different dimensions that have different time periods (anywhere from 1 second ago to 20 years into the future)?
Just basically imagine a film strip. And now, imagine each one of those all running at the same time. Basically, one of those is one "time dimension". Now imagine all of those running at the same time.
I don't mean this type of running: (each "-" and "|" represents one box I guess)
- - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - +Not running horizontally
^ this would be one going after another, causing motion picture.
The type of running I'm talking about is this:
| | | | | | | | | | | |
^ Notice how each one runs parallel next to each other?
Unless you occupied my head, I will never be able to explain this.
So to make things simple, I'll use use tgan's method.
Time dimension 1: Xiao Yu's time.
Time dimension 2: Jay Chou's time.
Let's get one thing clear: Xiao Yu most likely died because of these reasons.
1. She was saddened by the fact she will never be able to see Jay again. (she said so herself when she was talking to the teacher [or Jay's dad I presume])
2. Her mother's gone insane her teacher thinks she's mentally challenged. To add a step further, the so-called class president told everyone about this "secret".
3. She thought Jay was cheating on her with the other girl.
4. During the graduation, when she was writing with white out, the pressure of everything she's been through finally got to her and her asthma kicked in.
When Jay returned to the past, the building was being demolished at the time. As he pressed the final key, the piano itself was (probably) destroyed. If this is the case, then Jay has no future to return to because when you return to your own time, you return to the time that you played the piece (my theory). This was was never clarified so I can't say for sure. But lets just assume this is the case. If Jay has no future (or present), then whatever time period he's in becomes his present time. This might possibly explain the class photo.
As for why Xiao Yu is still alive? The only logical reason is Jay traveled further back in time. From here, logic is ignored because the movie also never clarified this whole "speed" (or tempo) issue. But, we can all presume Jay played super fast because.... well c'mon. A building's being demolished, you want to see your loved one again, and time is of essence. If it were me, I would have played so fast, I would have gone back to the dinosaur age! Anyway....
Depending on which subbed version of the movie you watched, this part might be different. However, the reason why Xiao Yu's mother said Xiao Yu was sick (when she was actually dead) was because she herself has gone insane. The death of her daughter was too much for her to handle and so, denial kicked in. In the past, when the character switched from Jay to Xiao Yu briefly, Xiao Yu was asked by her mother what she was like in the future. She couldn't say that she goes insane, so rather, she says the front door lock breaks (which does happen).*******
*******- Sorry guys. At this point, I am completely lost in thought. So many things are coming to me all at once and unfortunately, I only have two hands to type one idea at a time with. Basically, I completely forgot what I was talking about and what I was about to write. The fact that it's 11 pm (well past when I sleep) doesn't help either.
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Anyway, I was also interested in interpreting this whole "Jay-XiaoYu sibling issue.
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tgan3 wrote this |
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And also, why did the teacher and Xiao Yu talk as if they were so close, when Xiao Yu was explaining her secret of travelling to the future??...Although Xiao Yu address the teacher as "teacher" not "father"( This was because she didnt know that the teacher was her father, i'll explained it later... )Remember the beginning? Where Jay was in the school, and the teacher caught the two boys with cigarettes? We didnt know that Jay and the teacher were related in that scene, much similar to the case of the "young teacher" and Xiao Yu...It was only made known when they show Jay and the teacher eating together in their house...( haha nice clues laid out by jay chou )
Then why were the mother and father living in seperate homes? I guess they divorced when Xiao Yu was very young( So Xiao Yu cant remember whos her father )...That explains why the teacher is so concerned about Xiao Yu( asking her to come on graduation day and also taking a picture with her), and the teacher and Xiao Yu's mother didnt want to acknowledge they were together once...
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Ahh. There's actually a simple explanation for that. So simple that even a caveman can understand it. However, it's only a theory.
Basically, the teacher thought Xiao Yu was mentally challenged. Not just, but completely INSANE. This explains his kindness towards her (Seriously, do YOU treat mentally challenged people like you would treat a normal person? I think not).
Also, he knows she was getting bullied by her peers at school and knew she wouldn't come. Even though she wasn't insane (or mentally challenged even), he wanted to make her feel "normal" (which she already was) by getting her to go to the graduation.
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Done moving
Oh man... the piano was a pain. So was a refrigerator. But it's finally done! I'll be going to my new school soon and I must admit. I am a little nervous. Hopefully, this decision to move was for the best.
I keep getting a hunch that there's something I'm going to regret very badly.... I just hope it isn't true.
I keep getting a hunch that there's something I'm going to regret very badly.... I just hope it isn't true.
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Took my first exam
Fairly easy. Not too difficult. A lot easier then what I anticipated, to say the least. Considering the fact that I put absolutely NO effort into studying for these subjects (Biology and Spanish), it was quite a surprise.
Geography was FAR too easy. In fact, it was so easy I'm beginning to think that the "exam" I took wasn't the real one. Because I know for a fact I have never gotten anything above a 95% on a semester exam and I know for a fact that I got about 98-100% on this test. Weeeeeird. I just hope this blog didn't jynx it.
Geography was FAR too easy. In fact, it was so easy I'm beginning to think that the "exam" I took wasn't the real one. Because I know for a fact I have never gotten anything above a 95% on a semester exam and I know for a fact that I got about 98-100% on this test. Weeeeeird. I just hope this blog didn't jynx it.
Sunday, January 20, 2008
First community service hour
So after month over months of procrastination, I finally got my FIRST community service hour. And what a hour it was! Betcha $10 yours wasn't as unique as mine.
Basically, I went to a retirement home and played the piano (along with two girls) for an hour. We splitted the hour into three but we all get one hour into our service hours.
Great. Just 99 more hours until M.I.T...
Basically, I went to a retirement home and played the piano (along with two girls) for an hour. We splitted the hour into three but we all get one hour into our service hours.
Great. Just 99 more hours until M.I.T...
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Moving Schools
Yup I'm moving schools! The odds of anyone actually reading this is slim (1 in billion to be exact) but my happiness towards this event is worth writing about, whether anyone decides to read it or not.
So about 6 months ago, I made a move so stupid that I'm going to regret for as long as I live. I slacked off during my Freshmen year in High school and due to my extreme stupidity, my parents decided to move. Now, moving schools while living in the same city (or even states; possibly even one or two states away) isn't so bad. But my parents decided to take it to the next level. I lived in Las Vegas, Nevada; My parents decided to move all the way to Virginia; which, if you're not familiar with the US (shame on you tsk), is on the opposite ends of the Country.
However, my parents gave me the courtesy of choosing the school that I wished to go to. Well back then, at that moment, it didn't really matter because I thought I lost everything. I mean, afterall, what teenager actually wants to move from his/her hometown? Thats right, no one.
Well back in school, I was part of a AFJROTC unit. I figured the closest connection I can get to the next school that I'll very soon be attending was through the same classes. So my parents did a few research and found exactly one school with AFJROTC. My parents argued that my reasons weren't strong and I was being blinded by my past. (Obviously) I didn't listen.
6 months later, here I am, in this poor, old, runned down school building (the school I formerly attended in Vegas was about x4.3 times larger). Now here comes the bit biased part of this.
Before I begin, I'd like everyone (if anyone at all lol) to know I am NOT a racist. I have never (and never will) brushed shoulders with a Black. However, this school did manage to lower my own personal statues of Black Americans. Why? It's simple.
This school is 78% black's (not joking; on their website) and the way they treat everyone is basically CRAP. In fact, they actually end up treating each other like crap. The whole school is basically seperated into groups. It's basically among whites, Asians (0.1%), and hispanics. Now with blacks, it's different. Personally, the way they behave towards each other, I think blacks should have their own subsection. Among them, it's seperated into the smart blacks (the ones I like), the ghettos (the way media portrays them), and the obnoxious-I-Like-To-Yell-and-Scream-Cursewords-at-Teachers-etc.-etc.etc.
However, all that is about to change! In exactly one week (January 17, 2008 today), I will be moving schools. I went to the school just yesterday, and already the welcoming feeling is overwhelming. The school itself, physically, is already cleaner. The students are extremly nice (had to find the office and one student voluntarily led us [my mom and I]).
The office was also a LOT more friendlier, in terms of helping us out. For a change (for the good), I didn't hear curse words being screamed out from every direction of every side of the school. Kids were a lot more interactive and the overall feeling of the school was welcoming for a change.
Well I can go on and on about the school, but I really don't feel like typing the rest of this out. Plus I have to go do my homework anyway 
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